Heres yesterdays video, first up -
Its 1am. Last night I took no painkillers at bedtime. I was worried I'd get used to taking endone to get to sleep. Anyway, 1230am comes and I make the stupid mistake of trying to roll onto my side. It hurt. I felt sick. Epic fail. Cue 30m of tears and frustration.
Things i need to remind myself of - this is not a race. This is not a simple thing. This is a long term plan. Im going to feel shit for several weeks, and months. It's going to take months to get back to normal. I need patience. I also need to remember what it was like having that reflux/gastritis thing at 130kg. It was horrible pain without choice. It was scary. It was weight related. I now need to go and look at my 'before' underwear shots and remind myself this was the right decision. It just takes time. Then I think I will stop being a martyr, and take a painkiller and try to get some more sleep. Sigh.
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