I sometimes still have regrets. Why did I do this again? It'd be nice to go away for the weekend and anticipate a nice meal. Not to worry about every single time I eat. Pain, unsettled stomach, or nausea. It'd be nice to just sit and eat without thinking. If I am in a hurry, to grab a bite on the run and not have to make a production of every meal.
I need to remind myself it will keep getting better, that over 5000 people a year die in Australia of obesity related causes. That I was on a rapid downward spiral and getting heavier every day - and sicker with it. That already I feel more confident and happier with how I look.
As things settle further, the balance of these will keep shifting. It's harder than I expected, though. And the reminder that this is my forever now, is a fair weight of its own.
Keep writing and posting! I have had the same thoughts about the nice meal, but just tell myself I have had plenty of nice meals in my life. I have not had a healthy body almost ever though :) You made a huge decision to help yourself and it is working! Keep it up and stay positive! It is hard but the results will keep coming. You can do it!
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